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13 November, 2015

Kembali Pulang Setelah Tersesat Cukup Lama

Halo semuanya.

Ini bukan merupakan entri pertama di blog yang saya buat pada tahun 2012 ini. Seperti yang sudah terpampang di kiri atas laman, "getting lost is my thing", saya rasa saya perlu sampaikan bahwa saya sudah tersesat cukup lama, terutama jika merujuk pada hari ini, 3 tahun setelah entri terakhir yang saya muat.

Saya sudah kembali pulang. Pulang dan menemukan diri saya lagi.

Tiga tahun berlalu, banyak hal yang terjadi dalam kehidupan saya, dari hal kecil seperti di mana saya sekarang tinggal hingga menemukan seseorang yang katanya, penciptaan saya berasal dari tulang rusuknya (jika Tuhan mengijinkan).  Di antara kedua hal itu, sungguh tak terhitung perjalanan naik-turun dan jatuh-bangun saya. Tetapi saya tetap bersyukur. Karena tersesat bukanlah sesuatu yang menakutkan atau merisaukan. Karena tersesat bukanlah sesuatu yang selalu bermakna negatif. Dalam ketersesatan, saya temukan kekuatan, hingga saya temukan jalan pulang.

Salah satu hal yang berubah adalah, hobi saya. Dalam blog ini bisa ditemui beberapa tulisan saya ketika saya masih sangat menggemari musik pop Korea, atau K-Pop istilah kerennya. Bukan saya tidak menggemari jenis musik ini lagi, hanya semakin sulit bagi saya meluangkan waktu untuk mengikuti setiap perkembangan yang selalu muncul tiap harinya. Saya tidak akan keberatan disebut "alay" dan sebagainya, karena bagaimanapun, saya pada hari ini adalah saya yang berasal dan berkembang dari masa lalu. Sehingga, entri-entri mengenai kegemaran saya yang satu ini tak akan saya hapus.

Itulah satu dari sekian banyak perubahan yang saya alami, hanya contoh dan pengenalan kecil mengenai saya di masa sebelumnya.

Saya memutuskan untuk perlahan membenahi blog ini dan kembali menulis di media online. Belum ada tema khusus untuk blog ini, cukup sebagai media bagi saya untuk berbagi informasi mengenai banyak hal. Sungguh, begitu banyak yang ingin saya tuangkan di entri ini, tapi saya pikir itu akan membosankan. Jadi, mungkin di lain waktu, sebagai selingan. 

Saya rasa ini sudah sudah lebih dari cukup. Bagi yang penasaran (saya harap ada), saat ini saya berusia 23 tahun, bekerja di sebuah hotel butik tercantik dan terunik di Malang, dan mempunyai kekasih hati yang sempurna karena ketidaksempurnaannya. Satu hal yang lebih penting dari itu semua, saya bahagia.

21 Juli, 2012

My Thought About BEAST'S Comeback with Midnight Sun

Annyeong everyone, hello guys ~

In this post, I will scream the words out of my lungs, the words about what I'm actually thinking about BEAST's comeback with the mini album "Midnight Sun".
So first of all, excuse my language if I say maybe rude words or something that may offend your feeling, because I just want to say everything so I'd feel better about this :)

Filming MV(s) in New York. When I first heard about BEAST filming MV(s) in NYC, I'd thought about BEAST's changing. I mean I was certain that BEAST would change their old previous image to a new one for this most anticipated comeback, and it's NYC. There must be something about the city 'til BEAST feeling it was needed to shoot the MV(s) there. I was so curious and nervous at the same time in anticipating this comeback, since I'm a new B2UTY, and this would be my first time anticipating BEAST's comeback.

One day, I saw some photos of BEAST filming the MV(s), the first thing on my mind was, WOW. I noticed that their hairstyles were changed, and it changed, a lot. Colorful hairstyles, colorful wardrobes. I saw the NEW BEAST, the old BEAST has gone. I'm not gonna be a coward by saying I liked it a lot, that I liked the changes a lot. Because the truth is, I didn't like it. I know I'm a new fans, but I just felt like I didn't know BEAST at all with those colorful hairstyles and wardrobes. I liked it like when they were in SHOCK and FICTION Comeback. I liked BEAST that way, not this way. It was like this is not BEAST. This is 
somebody else.

I told you guys I will not being a coward by telling you I like the changes, because the very first time I saw those photos, I didn't like it. I even  didn't like Yoseob's orange hair. My very first question about it was : "Why? Why'd they change this much?". Really, that time, I couldn't accept BEAST's changing.

Until one day, I got a bitch-slap after reading someone's blog >>

"On the whole, their American trip was really tiring, coming to New York with such hot weather, filmed for 10+ hours a day, actors may take their break, but who’s there to replace them~~? We took for 4 hours, but they had to continue their shoot even after us leaving. That moment, I felt that celebrities are not easy to be. This Comeback, everyone please give in your support!"

From the posting above, I finally realized that BEAST had done so damn much for this comeback, they pushed their limits for this comeback. Six of them were exhausted, my Seobie wasn't feeling well during the MV(s) shoot, and I was complaining about their change? I should have been sent to hell for saying that kind of thing. Somebody should have been shot me for saying those bad things about BEAST.

Days went by, I changed from someone who disliking the new BEAST, to someone who is and will always continuing loving the boys, no matter what.

July 11, after BEAST held a broadcast titled HANGOUTS ON AIR WITH BEAST ON GOOGLE+ to celebrate their 1000day, they revealed the name of the mini album which would released on July 22 :

I cried. I regret for ever being such a douche by disliking them about their new concept. Once I saw the Midnight Sun photos, I'm proud. I'm proud for being a B2UTY. I'm proud of BEAST.

Days went by, teaser by teaser came out.

Throughout those news, updates, and teasers, I've been sleepless. Went to bed late at night, even 3 in the morning. Woke up at around 9 or 10 and there were already bunch of updates spreading everywhere, searching for the best photos, reading the best sources, making sure not missing any of a lot updates. And that was pretty hard things to do. I was always got panic-attacked anytime the news came out.
But still, that was nothing, compared to BEAST's hard work to prepare for this comeback.

Below, I will quoted about BEAST's members talking about this comeback (I give the link too) :

During a press conference at (name of place ignored) on July 20 at 4.30 pm regarding about BEAST's 5th mini album, the group have been asked about "one word to describe the album", the boys stated:
Yong Junhyung expressed that, “We want to use war to present this album. The process of preparing this album is like war, we have different opinions from people around us, and we’re insecure about all these changes. But we really wanted to show a confident look of ourselves on stage, so we decided to use this as title track.”
Leader, Yoon Doojoon stated, “It’s not that we want to challenge to break out from idols’ (usual) music styles, it’s just that we want to resist. The topic we were left was that, we have to make little changes to a certain extent that is acceptable among the public,” expressing his thoughts on their musical changes.
Dongwoon said, “To change our music style after 3 years, it’s a very hard thing to do. Even till now, we still have these confusing thoughts of, ‘Are we doing it right?’. But all six of us were initially confident about this title track, so even if it doesn’t turn out well, we will not have any regrets.”

During the same press conference mentioned above, the group confessed their worries about the transformation :
“Because this is the first time where we will be trying out electronic-styled music, there were lots of worries and frustration. The truth is, our attempt to change actually worries us.”“Towards our fans who waited for us for a long period of 1 year and 2 months, although showing our normal looks seems nothing big, but we worried that by doing so, we will disappoint them.”  “But, after we have thought over it, we’ve decided to put on the best album, and therefore, gaining   confidence from it.”Yoseob even said, “We hope that we’ve incorporated our experience from our world tour into this album. We felt that our interactions with fans are seriously little,” and, “Hope that with this album, we are able to compensate that part, and then show us our liberal yet handsome new teenage looks.”

BEAST who met up with reporters on July 20th confessed their nervousness and their goals of the transformation :

Members said, “We have stripped off those limitations of the title track which shows a strong dance and emotional songs such as “Shock”, “Fiction” and “On Rainy Days”.”
Exactly how they’ve said in would turn out, title track “Beautiful Night” is an electronic song which is composed by a new team of composers, which allows anybody in this hot summer to want to dance automatically.
This title track which was chosen meticulously, is to show the different sides of the members after a year and 2 months since their last comeback.
“Beautiful Night” is an MV which was filmed in New York, America, whereby the members wore casual wears and attractive accessories, showing a liberal image.
The members’ participation in this album is relatively high too.. Yong JunHyung participated in writing the lyrics for “Midnight” and “If I miss you”, as well as the composing and penning for “When you rest” and “Dream Girl”.
Prior to this, because they were actively holding activities overseas, towards this long yet blank period, BEAST confessed their nervousness.
“Of course we are nervous, but we actually thought more of bringing a good song for this comeback, and to receive more love. The reason for our delays in comeback since May was actually because of this.” (Jang Hyunseung)
Also, their experience in holding world tour concerts have helped in this new song too.
JunHyung and Hyunseung stated, “While touring world wide, we have felt the need to try out new things, and learn how to enjoy while we are at it.”, “Unconsciously, we have accumulated such thoughts, and will be showing all these in our upcoming activities”, they’ve explained.
Meanwhile, they have hinted on their anticipation for this album as well as their goals.
Hyunseung said, “Although we aren’t that greedy about getting awards, but during ‘Fiction’ era, which we have obtained consecutive 3 weeks of awards, and having titled ‘triple crowns’, “People around us are encouraging us to get 1st for 4 consecutive weeks. Hopefully, this will come true, making it a valuable activity.”
Lee Kikwang added on, “Lately PSY-sunbaenim’s song is really well-received, I hope that our songs will get loves from everyone too”.

And below is the complete summary of the Q&A of the press conference held at  Seoul Chungnamdong on July 20th at 4.30pm regarding their 5th mini album MIDNIGHT SUN :

Also, I would let you know about what Yang Yoseob and Yoon Doojoon wrote at their [BEAST CAFE] :

[cafe] 120720 yoseob’s post - this night i can’t fall asleep in

After rolling around and rustling on the bed like it’s my solo acrobatic show
I ended up coming down the ladder to sit in front of my computer and complain

Always before comeback I feel like that I can’t satisfy myself no matter how hard I try
Thinking that the songs we prepared will disappoint the fan or the public..
To be honest, I think I tend to worry more than I anticipate..

Um.. don’t be afraid of change..I’m reminded by these words..
But to be honest how can you not be afraid of change..
I think change is such a scary thing..

Of course I’m always thinking to myself “This change is going to be successful” but,
At the same time a corner of my heart is thinking the bad thought, “Well… would it really be that successful?”
I guess I can’t help it because I’m human..haha
This isn’t only happening to me, but I’m sure the Cube staff members..BEAST’s friends..Are all thinking the same thing. (If not oh well)

..Ack I’m rambling trying to write out my thoughts I didn’t even organize in my mind..
I feel like I’m have been writing the same thing and erasing it for an hour now.
I still have a lot of say, but I’m sleepy so I’ll stop here..keke

Anyways…BEAST is standing at the starting line again.
Maybe it’s because the start gun didn’t fire yet, but I’m nervous to the point I might throw up.
We will run well in the future zoom zoom!! Cheer for us a lot.. and cherish us..

We will…do well right~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~?

Conclusion: We prepared a lot of this. Show us a lot of love.
Source :

Yoon Doojoon's Post : It's Beautiful Night when Stars are Shining
          Aiyo.. It has been a long while.. hehehehee
Firstly, I’m not writing because Yang Yoseob wrote it first.I actually wanted to write one on the night before comeback, but Yang Yoseob was faster than me.Wait till tomorrow morning, and I shall trained my boxing skills on him, that will be enough……..Heheheheh… Lately, I feel insecure……Now, the feelings I’m writing for this article… how are these feelings… like the feelings when we’re writing “Thanks To”…?There’s this feeling of becoming an idol……. And there’s also feelings of looking back in time…Ah… I’m an idol… ;;Hehehe.. Anyways, there’s always these insecurities whenever a new album is about be released, until I couldn’t go to sleep.This time, it’s more serious….Moments like this, looking back at what we’ve done during the day before sleeping….Compare it with the days where we can sleep happily….It’s more of ending the day with worries and reflection…Anyhow, we have some growth.So today, I’m telling you guys here, so that I can sleep well!!!It seems not bad here.If I say everything out, my feelings will be better….Hmm.. Less than 24 hours before the release of music source….There are lots of things too…In my heart, I feel pain, and my body is extremely tired….I want to go back to the stage, and meet everyone…Like this, day by day we’ve passed…. Now it’s really in front of our eyes.Let worries stop here…..Everybody.. really… very…. well done…Composer-hyungs, Prepix-hyungs, Manager-hyungs, staffs and crews,and also B2UTYS who waited for us for a year and 2 months…Lastly, thanking to our members…The long-awaited BEAST is coming back!!!Please listen to it well…
Hope your eyes and ears will be able to enjoy this fun summer!!!!!!! 
Source :

Ahh~ such a very long post huh? Keke~
So before I get more tired, this is my respond to BEAST's comeback, Yoseob's and Doojoon's posts :
To my BEAST boys, I apologize for ever being complaining about those transformations. I finally realized, that every single thing you've been done for this comeback is for us, Beauties, and people who support you. You've changed for us, you don't want us get bored of you, you want us to be more closer to you, above all, you want to satisfied us, to make us happy. And you know what guys, that is why we all love six of you. No matter how hard you try to be the best, you never think that you're the best already, no matter how hard you try to be perfect, you never think that you're perfect already. No matter how hard you try, you still think that you are less. That is why we love you. Because you are and will always keep trying, to be the best, to be perfect for us, to never disappoint us. Thank you for that, BEAST. Thank you for did and doing every single thing for us.
To my dearest Yang Yoseob. Obie, when I read your post that night, only 15 minutes after you post the thing, I cried, Obie. I never thought that you care about us that much until you weren't able to sleep well. Obie, I apologized for ever disliking BEAST's transformation, I won't ever, ever do that again, Obie. I realized that every single thing you do is for us, to make us happy. I realized that a 'change' is a scary thing too, but I also realized that a 'change' to be better is not bad. It's good as long as you change for the better. So my Obie, don't worry too much. You and the other BEAST's member will be successful with the new mini album. Will be successful in any single thing you'd done for us. I heard about your solo dance part on "Not Me" which you'll be performing on comeback stage, don't worry about that, your dance is perfect, you'll do good, you'll do well, you'll do best. I read about you who wasn't doing well during the NYC MV(s) shoot, it makes me sad. So please Obie, no matter how busy you are, eat well, take care and be healthy always. Saranghaeyo and thank you for everything Obie <3
 To my dear Yoon Doojoon. Doodoo, it was just couple hours ago I read about your post. Ahh oppa~ since you're become an idol now, you have to take care of yourself, be healthy always okay? About your feeling you've told us, we understand that, Doodoo. We understand how hard it is to prepare this long-awaited comeback for us, and we couldn't ask for more. We will always love and support BEAST no matter what, Doodoo oppa. Don't worry too much like Obie does, okay? keke~ thank you for everything Doodoo oppa, saranghaeyo <3
To BEAST, to the management, and to everyone who already prepare and work hard for this comeback, thank you. We really appreciate the hard work, we really appreciate every single sweat-drops and tear-drops in preparing this comeback. We promise that we will support BEAST no matter what, until forever. We will support BEAST through the good times, through the bad times, through the sunny days, through the cloudy days, through the storms, through the rain, through the snow. We promise.
I may not be there for BEAST in the beginning, but I promise, I will be there 'til the end.
I may be a new B2UTY and didn't wait one year and two months for this comeback, but my love and support towards BEAST is so freaking huge.
Ahh~ Such a very long and an emotional post right? :') I cried once awhile while writing this post :')
And the comeback will be in like what? an hour from now? wow that goes by so fast. Lol.
So this is the end of the post. Thanks for reading, comments and critics are welcomed <3

20 Juli, 2012

How I Turned Into A B2UTY (How I Met Yoseob and Hyunseung)

Hello guys :D

So in this post, I’d tell you about how on earth I’d turned into a B2UTY (BEAST’s fans) :D

You still had no idea about BEAST yet? Here they are :

Left to right : Yoon Doojoon, Yong Junhyung, Yang Yoseob, Jang Hyunseung, Son Dongwoon, Lee Gikwang

And read my lastest post about broadcasting with them here :

                So first, I would tell a story of how my cousin was influenced me.

            Well, it all started with my cousin, her name is Frista, being a Kpopers. At first, she likes Super Junior a lot, and then continuing liking another Kpop artists, boybands, and girlbands. Until one day, she introduced me to a boyband named B2ST (BEAST). It was about one-two years ago. To be honest, like all those previous boybands and girlbands she had introduce me before, I still remained uninterested. Time to time, Frista had successfully influent her siblings. Her younger sister and her two younger brothers turned into a Kpopers. They like Korean songs, the boybands and the girlbands too.

             But Frista is only going crazy about one boyband. And it’s BEAST.

            For the record, since March 2011 until October 2011, I worked at Sunway Resort Hotel and Spa at Selangor, Malaysia, as a trainee,as a Guest Service Agent, under the Front Office Department.

            It was the end of June 2011, when I received informations that the boyband BEAST would hold a concert at Sunway Lagoon, a themepark located just next to Sunway Resort Hotel and Spa, the hotel I worked at.

            Once I heard about their concert, I called Frista, informing her about it. She was so damn excited, hoping I would get a privilege of taking their pictures or getting their signatures for her. I knew it was impossible, because there are rules to protect guest’s privacy, since BEAST would definitely stay at the hotel. But I told her still that I’d try for her. I mean I didn’t want to break her heart.

            The day BEAST arrived at the hotel, they arrived at night except for one member which is gikwang who arrived after them, in the noon. I heard that there was a chaos outside the lobby. You know, a common things when celebrity entered the hotel. Fans and paparazzies, stuff like that. I was in afternoon shift, so I didn’t know exactly about his coming and the chaos.

            Once I started my shift, I received briefing about BEAST’s privacy. I was given their names and their room number, so if they called asking for anything, I’m prepared already, to give them the best service.

               I don’t remember about the exact date and time, but that time, in the evening, I had to send a guest message to a floor which some of BEAST’s members were staying in. I walked casually to the room, not anticipating anything, while I saw some people standing outside an opened room. By then, I knew it was some of BEAST’s member room. I prepared my self to greet the people outside, because it was the thing we had to do as an employee in the hotel. Once I greeted them and they greeted me back, I could see someone with a black hair sitting on the bed, playing with his phone. I was pretty sure that that was one of the members. And now that I know BEAST already, the one I saw was Gikwang. The Lee Gikwang.

               Guys, I hope you know that that time, I HAVE NOT LIKE BEAST YET T.T



            Okay, chillax. Back to the story. Lol.

            The night after BEAST held their concert, I finished my work at around 11, I went out from the hotel and I saw groups of girl chanting out their name like “BI-SE-TEU!BI-SE-TEU!BI-SE-TEU!” I was like, WOW, that was a chaos.

And now I didn’t know why the hell i was so calmed T.T

            Seriously guys, while I’m telling you this story, I feel so dumb and stupid. I regret, why I was too late? Why I love BEAST now, not since back then when I got the chance to see them?

            Well, I guess that it’d be no use for regretting that, right?

            Then, let’s move to the main story. Hehe.

            Days went by, Devi, Frista’s younger sister (the one who joined me in the broadcast), slowly going crazy about BEAST too. Among those 4 cousins, Devi is the one who closest to me. So I knew exactly how excited she was when she told me every single thing about BEAST, and about her bias Lee Gikwang.

            Honestly, I listened to all of those girls saying to me about BEAST. About their songs, about their personal life, about their appearance, about their sing and dance skill, about everything. I watched BEAST’s videos with them like a billion times, listened to BEAST’s songs with them like gazillion times. But I was so freaking hard like a stone, still not interested in them.

            It’s wasn’t like I don’t wanna be a Kpopers like people thought about me, it was because I didn’t want to try to be one because I felt like it was hard for me to recognize all those same Korean’s faces, to read the song lyrics and memorize them.

            Until one day, I had no idea why, I asked Devi to transfer some of videos and songs of BEAST to my laptop and phone. And when I was about to sleep at night, I listened to one of those songs in my phone, the first song that played after I pressed played was Bad Girl. Magically, I was suddenly addicted to the song, keep it on replay ‘til I fell asleep. The next morning, I looked over the MV (Music Video) in my phone and laptop but couldn’t find it, maybe Devi forgot to transfer that one. So I decided to download the MV right away. Since then, I replayed the MV over and over again.

            Again, magically, after around 2 days, I recognize some words in the song and started to singing along with it. Not long after that, I finally googled the lyrics, read them and tried to memorize them.

            Watching Bad Girl’s music video and listening to the song for a billion times made me memorize some move of the dance and also memorized the whole lyrics (don’t count the Junhyung part, okay? lol. Cause when I rap I don’t know whether i say the words correctly lol.) And that made me so damn proud.

            And guys, when I watched the MV of Bad Girl that morning, there was only one face that caught my heart. The face with white hair with a cap on it. Yes, the face of Yang Yoseob.

            The cute face, the smile, the very bright smile, it’s like a sunshine. I’m not being cheesy here okay? It’s the truth.

            That was the moment I fell in love with Yang Yoseob and BEAST. It was only 4 months ago.

            Since then, I was so excited downloading their songs and albums, their pictures and photos. I read posts about them anywhere possible like on a blog, twitter, and facebook. I followed their twitter, and any fanbase about them. I join forums in order to catch up with their news.

            My life is ruined by BEAST, but in a good way of course. Lol.

            In only 4 months, my life is about BEAST, seriously. There is not a day I spend without listening to their songs or watching their videos. There is not a day I spend without checking news and update about them.

            In only 4 months, I already love BEAST to death. I idolized them, I adore them. I love them.

            Ahh~ I don’t know what else to say :’)

            I’m too emotional now writing all of this :’)

            So by writing here, I would like to thank my cousin Frista, for introduced me to BEAST. And also to my cousin Devi, for helping me fangirling keke. Thanks for the night where you spent your time helping me recognizing Doojoon, Hyunseung, Junhyung, and Dongwoon’s faces.  Thanks for those days you spent your time telling me everything you know about Yoseob and BEAST. Thanks for the night you spent your time with me crying over the cancelled broadcast. Thanks for the happy times, thanks for the rough times.

            And to BEAST, this July 22 will be my first time to experience and anticipate your comeback. You had no idea how many rough times I’ve been through to catch up with any single updates about this comeback. I’m not upset or unhappy or complaining, but I thankful. I may be a new BEAUTY, but I know about you guys’ hard work, I thankful for the music you’ve create, for everything you’ve done for us.

            Ahh~~ I’m crying again. I told you I’m too emotional right now, hehe.
            So, i guess this will be the end of this post. For additional, I will give you some photos of me working at Sunway Hotel and also BEAST’s comeback photos J

Me in front of Sunway Resort Hotel & Spa

Me at the office

Anyway, here are my accounts if any of you want to contact me directly xD :
And also my instagram with ID @RVirjinia 

Thanks guys, see ya ^^

13 Juli, 2012


First of all, if you have no idea about BEAST yet, here they are :

On the top from left to right : Son Dongwoon, Yong Junhyung, Yoon Doojoon.
On the middle from left to right : Lee Gikwang, Jang Hyunseung.
On the bottom : Yang Yoseob.

            Korean biggest and greatest boyband, BEAST (B2ST), was planning to held an event called “HANGOUTS ON AIR WITH BEAST ON GOOGLE+” to celebrate their 1000th day on July 11, 00:00 Korean Time (KST). I wasn’t aware about this event until I received an email on July 9, 23:37 Indonesian Time , containing informations and a form to win a chance to be invited to BEAST Google+ group to join the HANGOUTS. I really love and adore BEAST, going crazy over them, so I wasn’t hesitate to fill the form. To be honest, I didn’t even expect that I would win, I mean, come on, BEAST is a very popular boyband, they have a giant amount of fans around the world. I didn’t even wish to win, because I know that there would be too many participants whose trying to win the thing.
            So the next day, July 10, I did my daily routine as usual. Then around 14:00 Indonesian Time, I received a call from +85xxxxxxxxx, when I picked up the call, after a fine greeting, the lady on the other line was straightly remind me to  “log in to Google+ tonight at 22:00 KST”. I was pretty dumb for forgetting that I participate on the thing. When I remembered, I was again so pretty dumb, silly, and stupid, by asking the lady (unnie) “Wait, wait, so I won?” and unnie answered “Yes, that’s why I called”. Oh My God. That was the only thing I kept saying. Unnie said “That’s okay. Calm down, everything is okay, everything is going to be okay.” . Well, I was suffocated, seriously, I’m not being overacting, that was how I exactly felt while I was talking with unnie. I couldn’t breath properly, stattered a couple times. Unnie was talking evertyhing about the event. She kept reminding me that the broadcast would start at 00:00 KST (22:00 Indonesian Time), but I have to log in to Google+ at 22:00 KST (20:00 Indonesian Time). She also told me to download the video call plug-in in order to join the broadcast. Right after she hang up the phone, I was crying, like seriously, I was crying so hard, made my mom freaked out. I was don’t know what to do, thinking that it was just a beautiful dream and I would wake up in the end. But it wasn’t. It was real. It was freaking real. I would join the broadcast. I would see BEAST, I would talk with them.
            For me, BEAST was so far. BEAST was unreachable. I live in Indonesia, they live in Korea. Even our language is different.And I don’t have a huge amount of money, because so far I don’t have a job which I can count on. So watching their concert is still my dream. By winning this thing, I was so close to BEAST, I was so damn close. My chance to greet them. Maybe my only chance until I found a way to go to their concert or show.
            I was high, high in the sky, just by imagining I great BEAST. I love the 6 of them, but who I love the most is Yang Yoseob. Just by imagining greeting Yoseob and the rest of BEAST members, got me high.
            When I finally calmed down, I called my cousin (her name is Devi) who also love BEAST to death, wanted her to join the broadcast with me, I didn’t have a thought of do the broadcast alone. I was choking on my own words when I told her about the whole thing (I sent her a text once I read the email, but she said she didn’t receive any text from me). She was also shocked. Gosh, this is what we always wanted, meeting and greeting  BEAST. The next hour, she arrived at my house, then we were crying together.
            Exactly at 22:10 KST, unnie called me again informing me that her and her team from Cube was already preparing the broadcast, so it would take awhile until they invited me to join the broadcast.  After around 15 minutes waiting, she called again, informed me that I was already invited to join the HANGOUTS group, then she tutored me until I finally in to the broadcast, and greet unnie face to face. Unnie was trying to contact the other winner, so while she doing that, she left me hanging. Me and my cousin amazed just by seeing the broadcast room, a room with CUBE ENTERTAINMENT painted on its wall. Amazed by an empty couch which BEAST would seat on it. Amazed by how busy the team preparing the broadcast. Both me and my cousin was trying our best to hold our tears.
            Not too long after I was in, my internet connection start to messed up. We kept disconnected, in and out the broadcast group. The picture kept breaking , continuedly pausing because of the terrible connection. Me and Devi was so worried and scared, afraid that we wouldn’t able to join the broadcast.
            What we scared the most was finally happened. Unnie called me, she said that she had to cancel my broadcast because my connection was so terrible, inconvenient the others. I was crying, unnie kept saying sorry to me, even promised to send me something to replace the cancelled broadcast. But i was just couldn’t accept that. I kept begging to her to give me another chance, I said to her that I really wanted to meet BEAST, to join the broadcast. Unnie was so so soooo nice by saying “Okay Rosa, I’d give you one last chance,”
            After she hang up the call, after i already in again, Unnie told the winners, five of us, that they were having a technical issue, so they would close the group and create new one, she said they would reinvite us again.
            After waiting for a couple minutes, I received an invitation to join the new group. I was in smoothly, but I only saw Helena. The other 3 haven’t in yet. Me and Devi saw a different side of the room, it was only an empty couch with a wall right at the back of it. No one was in front of the camera. But then, the connection start to messed up again, the picture we watched was kept breaking, continuedly breaking, and stattered. We were so afraid, because the picture stopped moving. When it worked, we suddenly saw Dongwoon oppa was already sat on the corner of the couch, I didn’t know whether Dongwoon oppa realizing that me, Devi, and Helena was there, because He was looking down, maybe he was busy with his phone or something. What I know is I went crazy, I shouted at him like “Dongwoon oppa! Dongwoon oppa!” while Helena went speeechless covering her mouth with her hand. Devi told me that it was Hyunseung oppa, not Dongwoon oppa, so we argued like “It’s not Dongwoon! It’s Hyunseung! No! Look at him closely, it’s Dongwoon! No, It’s Hyunseung! No, it’s Dongwoon! No,it’s Hyunseung! Dongwoon! Hyunseung!”
            Suddenly, out of nowhere, Doojoon appeared, backing Dongwoon. He said “Annyeong,” and waving his hand. Oh. My. God. It felt like something was pulled out of us, I turned our head to the screen, screaming madly “Ahhh! Doojoon oppa! Doojoon oppa! Annyeong Doojoon oppa!” We went mad waving and shouting at Doojoon while Helena went speechless, covering her mouth with her hand. But then the picture pausing again, and the next thing we saw was unnie, and the other 3 winners were already in. Unnie said that the broadcast was about to start. She said “The broadcast is about to start, so I want you guys to introduce yourself first, starts with Helena then Rosa, and next,” So Helena start it, with no pause after Helena was done, I said “Annyeong, I’m Rosa and this is my cousin Devi, we’re from Indonesia and we really love BEAST!” then BANG! the connection was disconnected. When it connected, I tried to log in to the group, but they blocked me already. That was when our hearts broken into pieces.
            We kept trying to log in tho the group though we know it was useless. We were crying, crying hard, even harder compared to when we found out that we would join the broadcast.
            We were so close to BEAST. We were so CLOSE. I was so close to Yoseob. Devi was so close to Gikwang. But what could we do? Nothing.
            We didn’t even able to watch the broadcast on Youtube because the connection still kept messing up.
            We logged in to our twitter, expressing our happines and sadness there. Happy because we greeted by Yoon Doojoon, the leader of the group, and saw Son Dongwoon, the maknae of the group.
            My mom talked to me and Devi, saying that we are not destined to meet and greet BEAST yet. Our destiny so far was only greeted by Doojoon and saw Dongwoon. She told us that God knows that how much I love Yoseob, how much Devi loves Gikwang, that was why God delayed to granting our wish. Mom told us that she was very certain that we would meet and greet Yoseob and Gikwang and the rest of BEAST member in the future, that God would give us a wonderful time, a perfect time to grant our wish. Somehow, it calmed us down. However, we had to be thankful for seeing Doojoon and Dongwoon.
            We didn’t sleep at all that night. We spent hours ‘til morning talking about how precious our moment with Doojoon and Dongwonn. When I logged in to my twitter, it was a chaos. Mention flooded by people asking me whether it was me a fans from Indonesia whose Dongwoon mentioned about. I was shocked. Dongwoon mentioned me? What is this again?
            I didn’t watch the broadcast, so I searched the video on youtube as soon as I found out about the news. At around minute 10:15-10:50, we could hear that Dongwoon saying “Indonesia” followed by mentioning my name as “Rosayanie” followed by Doojoon saying “terrible connection”. We also could see those 5 papers on the table which I certain was a printed forms of us 5. And my paper was on the righr corner, in front of Dongwoon.
            God. Dongwoon mentioned my name. It felt like, well, heaven, hearing my name come out from his mouth.
            I cried again. I didn’t know whether I was happy, or sad. But I felt so confuse, feeling happy, sad, excited, regret, at the same time.
            Both me and Devi couldn’t asleep, but we both trying to. And everytime I closed my eyes, all I could see was Doojoon’s sincere smile. I could hear him saying “Annyeong”, I could hear Dongwoon’s voice saying my name. Somehow we both fell asleep, i guess it was 6 in the morning, and woke up at 8. We only able to sleep to hours because of Doojon’s face filling our minds, because of Dongwoon’s voice echoing in my mind.
            I logged in again to twitter, and found that someone told me I was captured on a picture, with Dongwoon looking at us at the screen, and the picture was uploaded at BEAST official fancafe. She also told me that BEAST was answer my question too. She kind of guessed that Hyunseung answered it. Again, for the many times, we shocked. What is this again? So we googled about that fancafe, after a couple minutes, we found it. We saw a picture of Dongwoon looking at the screen, our face was on the screen. Our jaws dropped, our hearts stopped. Though we didn’t know, we didn’t realize when did Dongwoon looked at us, we felt happy. Really happy. Not only Doojoon who saw us, who noticed us, but Dongwoon too, and maybe the rest of BEAST member. We just didn’t know it.
            In that picture, me and my cousin was also looking at the screen, but we bet, when Dongwoon looking at us, the connection was messed up, it happened when our screen froze. That was why we didn’t know about Dongwoon looking at us.
            Then again, I found my profile at BEAST Google+ page. It said that I was hangout with another 4 people with BEAST. They still count me as a winner though in the end I wasn’t able to join the broadcast. Oh God.
            Oh Gosh I don’t know what to say anymore. I’m happy. Really happy.
            So, as a final word, I would like to say thank you, very much, to the team, to everyone who already prepared for this event. Thank you for Unnie, I didn’t know your name, sorry for not asking it L. Thank you Unnie, for already gave me a chance, for being patient with me and my connection, thank you and your team for your hard for all 5 of us. And thank you to Doojoon oppa, Dongwoon oppa, and the rest of BEAST members, for being so nice to BEAUTY, for giving me such an wonderful appreciation. Thank you for your hard work for us and everything. Me and my cousin Devi really appreciate your hard work and everything. Saranghaeyo guys, saranghaeyo <3
            Congratulation for BEAST 1000th day, for BEAST’s comeback which would be on July 22. Totally can’t wait! :D
            And also thank you for the nice comments on twitter, thank you to everyone who gave me news and update about the picture and the video. Thank you so much <3
            And for the bad comments, I appreciate it too. I don’t really care about people who didn’t trust us until they saw the picture, about people who told me that I’m an attention whore. Because all i wanna do was just to share my happiness. Happiness is nothing until we share it J
            So, that’s all guys. Thank you for reading this post. Thank you for all the comments, really appreciate them. Thank you for everyone who puts me on their circle on Google+. BEAUTY or not, like BEAST or not, let’s be friends! xD

            Here are the video and the pictures :
            Oh, if anyone here could understand Korean, would you mind to make an english subtitle for this video? thank you in advance J

Around 10:15-10:50 we could hear Dongwon said "Indonesia" followed by mentioning my name as "Rosayanie" followed by Doojoon saying "terrible connection. We really need the english subtitle of this lol.

Below is the picture of me and Devi before the broadcast starts :

Left : Me   Right: Devi

Below is the picture of me was in at the new group broadcast at 21:42 and was blocked at 21:51 Indonesian Time :
My profile (Rosa Virjinia) name was appeared at the bottom, but not at the top

Below is the picture of Dongwoon looking at us : 

our screen was froze, that was why we had no idea that Dongwoon was looking at us. That was the "Unnie" who contacted me.

Below is the picture of my profile name was still counted as one of the winners (updated by BEAST July 10 Indonesian Time):
You can see this picture at BEAST Google+ aswell :)

UPDATED : The video of the hangouts with english subtitle caption is available here : :)
we can read that they were sad I wasn't able to join the broadcast, and Hyunseung answering my question in the end. My question was what is BEAUTY to BEAST :')

19 April, 2012


Cerpen ini adalah salah satu dari sekian cerpen yang saya sertakan dalam kompetisi-kompetisi menulis. Cerpen berjudul "Pentas Sebuah Hati" ini berhasil menjadi satu dari 28 karya favorit nasional dalam Lomba Menulis Cerpen Remaja (LMCR) tahun 2009 yang diadakan oleh PT. Rohto Laboratories Indonesia dan Raya Kultura.

Selamat Membaca! :D


Ketika aku berpikir bahwa aku sendirian,
Aku merasa kesepian,
Bahwa hanya hati dan jiwa dalam raga yang ku punya,
Tetapi ketika sebuah suara berbisik di telingaku,
Aku sadar bahwa aku tidak sendirian,
Aku tidak kesepian,
Karena ada hati dan jiwa lain yang menemani,
Dan mereka bersatu dalam sebuah,cinta...

            Sudah genap dua tahun Aisfa tinggal dan menuntut ilmu di Leeuwarden, Belanda. Meninggalkan tanah airnya, adalah satu keputusan yang berat. Karena meninggalkan Indonesia berarti meninggalkan kedua orang tuanya, saudara-saudaranya, teman-temannya, dan sahabat-sahabatnya, serta belahan hatinya. Selulus dari SMA, Paman Hardi, paman Aisfa yang tinggal dan bekerja di Belanda menawarkan untuk membiayai pendidikan Aisfa di Belanda. Menuntut ilmu di luar negeri memang menjadi cita-cita Aisfa, tetapi dirinya tidak menyangka akan meninggalkan Indonesia secepat itu, ditambah dengan Pamannya yang membiayai hidup dan pendidikan Aisfa, semuanya masih seperti mimpi bagi Aisfa. Jadilah sekarang Aisfa tinggal di Leeuwarden, bersama keluarga Paman Hardi dan Bibi Amalise.Aisfa menuntut ilmu di Stenden University Netherlands Leeuwarden, untuk program The Bachelor of Business Administration (BBA) Tourism Management dengan masa belajar 4 tahun, tiap tahunnya memiliki fase dan tingkatan yang berbeda. Aisfa sudah menyelesaikan tahun keduanya dan saat ini dirinya sedang berlibur di Ypres, Belgia, kota kelahiran Bibi Amalise.
            “Benarkah kamu akan pergi sendirian hari ini, Aisfa?” tanya Nenek, Ibu dari Bibi Amalise, sambil membereskan meja makan.
            “Ya, Nek.” jawab Aisfa singkat.
            “Baiklah kalau begitu. Ingin pergi kemana hari ini?” tanya Nenek lagi.
            “Aisfa ingin jalan-jalan di sekitar desa ini saja, Nek. Aisfa ingin mengunjungi Artillery Wood Cemetery.”
            Sesaat Neneknya diam.
            “Kalau begitu, boleh Nenek minta tolong?”
            “Boleh saja Nek,”
            Nenek Aisfa berhenti dari aktivitasnya membereskan meja makan, lalu pandangannya menerawang. Aisfa meyadari perubahan air muka Neneknya, lalu menghampirinya.
            “Berdoalah di makam Ayah Nenek. Sampaikan salam Nenek padanya, Nenek sangat merindukannya,” ucap Neneknya pelan, air mata mengambang di pelupuk matanya.
            Aisfa tersentuh, lalu ia memeluk Neneknya.
            Setelah beberapa saat, Neneknya melepaskan pelukan itu,
            “Makamnya terletak persis di sebelah kiri makam Francis Ledwidge,”
            “Baik, Nek. Kalau begitu Aisfa berangkat sekarang.”
            Neneknya hanya mengangguk.
            Desa dimana Nenek Aisfa tinggal bernama Boezinge, terletak di sebelah utara kota Ypres, di jalan N369 menuju Diksmuide. Tak jauh dari desa ini terdapat Artillery Wood Cemetery, pemakaman untuk para korban perang ataupun para pejuang Perang Dunia ke-I, juga merupakan makam dari Francis Ledwidge, penyair asal Irlandia.
            Aisfa berjalan kaki menuju pemakaman itu, menikmati suasana musim gugur yang datang lebih cepat. Menghirup udara segar di pedesaan adalah satu hal yang menenangkan bagi Aisfa.
            Aisfa pun sampai di pemakaman itu. Suasananya begitu hening, tidak ada suara selain daun-daun kering yang bergesekan lalu jatuh ke tanah. Mendengarkan alunan suara alam seperti itu saja Aisfa ingin menangis. Ia teringat akan Indonesia, ia teringat akan tangis Ibundanya ketika mengantar kepergiannya di bandara. Ia juga teringat akan Resky, orang yang ia sayangi dan cintai, teman sekelasnya ketika SMA. Ia teringat ketika Resky menyatakan cintanya, ia teringat ketika Resky berjanji untuk menunggu Aisfa hingga Aisfa bersedia menjadi kekasihnya. Karena pada waktu itu Aisfa memang masih belum ingin menjalin sebuah hubungan, orang tuanya juga belum menghendaki hal itu karena Aisfa masih bersekolah, meskipun Aisfa juga mencintai Resky.
            Air mata mengambang di pelupuk mata Aisfa. Tetapi ia tidak ingin menangis. Ia pun meneruskan langkahnya. Berjalan di antara berderet-deret makam bernisan putih,timbul perasaan asing dalam batinnya.
            Aisfa kembali berhenti. Ia menemukan makam Francis Ledwidge, tepat di sebelah kirinya adalah makam Ayah dari Neneknya.Di nisan itu tertulis ‘Pejuang Perang Dunia Pertama’. Aisfa pun bersimpuh di samping makam itu. Hatinya memanjatkan doa untuk buyutnya, semoga mendapatkan tempat yang lebih baik di sisi Tuhan.
            “Nenek sangat merindukan Anda,” ucap Aisfa pelan sambil mengusap nisan putih itu.
            Dan entah mengapa Aisfa tiba-tiba menangis. Ia terisak-isak. Ia teringat dengan semua hal yang ia tinggalkan di Indonesia. Ia merasa sangat kehilangan. Ia merasa sangat kesepian. Semua yang ada di sekitarnnya adalah asing. Negeri asing dan orang-orang asing.
            Kamu tidak boleh seperti ini Aisfa, kamu harus kuat, hatinya berkata. Aisfa pun diam, menghentikan tangisnya. Setelah memandangi nisan itu sekali lagi, Aisfa berdiri dari simpuhnya, lalu berjalan meninggalkan pemakaman itu.
            “Bagaimana jalan-jalannya? Menyenangkankah?” tanya Bibi Amalise sesampainya Aisfa di rumah.
            “Bukan menyenangkan Bi, tapi menenangkan,” jawab Aisfa sambil tersenyum.
            “Bagus kalau begitu. Bibi dengar dari Nenek, kamu pergi ke Artillery?”
            “Iya Bi. Aisfa berdoa untuk Buyut di sana. Nenek di mana Bi? Aisfa tidak melihatnya di kebun.”
            “Nenek sedang istirahat di kamarnya. Beliau teringat akan Ayahnya lagi.”
            “Tapi Nenek baik-baik saja kan Bi? Tadi sebelum berangkat Nenek ingin Aisfa menyampaikan salam rindunya untuk Buyut.”
            “Nenek baik-baik saja. Wajar kalau Nenek sangat merindukan Ayahnya, karena Nenek memang tidak pernah sekalipun melihat wajah Ayahnya, karena Nenek lahir tepat pada hari Ayahnya dikabarkan telah gugur di medan perang. Nenek merasa sangat kesepian karena tidak pernah bisa merasakan kasih sayang seorang Ayah. Nanti setelah Nenek bangun, temuilah beliau.”
            “Baik Bi,”
            Liburan akan berakhir dua minggu lagi. Aisfa mulai mempersiapkan diri. Ia kembali mempelajari diktat-diktat kuliahnya. Karena tahun ketiga dan tahun keempat merupakan fase yang menentukan sukses tidaknya kuliahnya. Karena itu pulalah Aisfa tidak bisa segera pulang ke Indonesia.
            Ketika membuka laci almari buku, Aisfa mendapati sebuah kotak berbentuk hati. Di dalam kotak itu Aisfa menyimpan benda-benda kenangan yang diberikan oleh sahabat-sahabatnya. Aisfa pun membuka kotak itu. Di dalamnya juga terdapat sebuah kalung yang berliontin belahan sebuah hati. Kalung itu diberikan oleh Resky, di hari mereka berpisah. Resky juga memiliki kalung yang sama. Jadi apabila kedua liontin dari kedua kalung itu disatukan, akan berbentuk sebuah hati yang utuh. Di hari itu Resky kembali menyatakan janjinya untuk setia menunggu Aisfa. Tapi hingga dua tahun berlalu, tidak pernah ada kabar dari Resky. Aisfa pun juga tidak pernah berniat untuk menghubungi Resky terlebih dulu. Jadilah sekarang mereka berdua benar-benar terpisah jiwa dan raga.

            Aku di sini selalu menunggumu, apakah kau di sana juga selalu menungguku?
            Aku ingin mendengar suaramu, sekali saja, agar aku tidak merasa sendiri dan        sepi di negeri asing ini.
            Semua serba tak pasti,
            Dan aku menginginkan sebuah kepastian,
            Katakan kalau kamu masih menungguku, masih mencintaiku,
            Tetapi jika memang kamu sudah tidak mencintaiku,,dan sudah tidak            menungguku,katakanlah,
            Katakan walau dengan satu kata,
            Tahun ketiga pun berjalan dengan cepat. Kesibukan Aisfa juga bertambah. Karena pada tahun ketiga, Aisfa diharuskan untuk kuliah lapangan (kuliah kerja nyata) di berbagai negara Mediterania. Dengan adanya kuliah lapangan ini Aisfa dapat dengan cepat melupakan Resky. Aisfa merasa senang dengan kesibukannya yang baru. Karena selain berkesempatan memiliki teman-teman baru dari berbagai negara, dirinya juga berkesempatan untuk refreshing dari satu negara ke negara lain. Inilah salah satu alasan mengapa Aisfa memilih jurusan Tourism Management atau Manajemen Pariwisata.
            “Assalamualaikum, Bunda.” sapa Aisfa di telepon.
            “Wa’alaikumsalam. Aisfa, bagaimana kabar kamu, Nak? Bunda kangen sekali sama Aisfa.” jawab sebuah suara di telepon.
            “Alhamdulillah, kabar Aisfa baik. Bunda sendiri bagaimana? Aisfa juga kangen sama Bunda,”
            “Alhamdulillah Bunda juga baik. Tapi minggu lalu Ayah Aisfa sakit,”
            “Astaghfirullah, mengapa tidak telepon Aisfa, Bun?”
            “Sekarang sudah baik, sudah bisa masuk kerja. Sakitnya juga tidak parah kok Aisfa. Bunda takut kalau nanti ganggu kuliah Aisfa. Kuliah Aisfa sekarang kan sibuk sekali.”
            “Memang sibuk Bunda. Tetapi kan tidak ada salahnya kalau Bunda menelepon,”
            “Iya, Bunda minta maaf. Aisfa sekarang sedang di mana?”
            “Sedang di Turki, Bunda,”
            “Hati-hati di sana ya Aisfa. Jangan lupa sholat dan mengaji.” pesan Bundanya.
            “Iya Bunda, Aisfa tidak akan lupa. Kalau begitu sudah dulu ya Bunda,salam untuk Ayah dari Aisfa.”
            “Iya Aisfa, nanti Bunda sampaikan. Cepat pulang ya Ais. Bunda kangen,”
            “Iya Bunda. Wassalamualaikum,”
            Klik. Telepon ditutup. Aisfa meneteskan air matanya. Ia sangat merindukan kedua orang tuanya. Untuk mengobati rasa rindu itu Aisfa hanya bisa mendengarkan suara mereka lewat telepon. Komunikasi lewat suara dan teks sajalah yang bisa mengobati rasa rindu Aisfa pada mereka yang berada di Indonesia. Kepada sahabat dan teman-temannya Aisfa lebih senang mengirim e-mail daripada menelepon. Komunikasi dengan kerabat-kerabatnya di Indonesia berjalan dengan lancar, kecuali komunikasi antara dirinya dengan Resky.
            Bus yang membawa siswa-siswi The Bachelor of Business Administration (BBA) Tourism Management  Stenden University Netherlands Leeuwarden meluncur tenang melintasi kota-kota sepanjang The Black Sea Coast. The Black Sea Coast atau pesisir Laut Hitam membentang dari kota Bafra di timur Turki hingga kota Karasu di ujung barat Turki. Sepanjang Bafra hingga Karasu, berjejer 26 kota kecil lain. Masing-masing kota memiliki ciri khas dan keeksotisan masing-masing. Seperti kota yang akan menjadi next destination atau tujuan berikutnya dalam program kuliah lapangan mahasiswa-mahasiswi Manajemen Pariwisata, Camburun Plaji.
            Camburun Plaji adalah sebuah kota kecil yang terletak 71 km dari Rize, kota yang banak dipenuhi oleh areal pertanian dan kebun-kebun botanik. Pantai yang ada di Camburun Plaji tergolong unik. Karena pantai tersebut terletak di bawah tebing-tebing curam berbatu dan baru bisa dicapai melalui kurang lebih 200 anak tangga yang dibuat dari batu-batu yang telah dipotong dan dibentuk.
            Setelah mendapatkan pengarahan singkat dari dosen mereka, mahasiswa-masiswi tersebut berpencar. Ada yang langsung mengunjungi pemukiman penduduk, untuk menjumpai penduduk setempat dan menanyakan soal Camburun Plaji, ada juga yang pergi ke pantai.
            Aisfa termasuk dalam rombongan mahasiswa yang pergi ke pantai. Dia tak sabar ingin segera memandang Laut Hitam dari bawah tebing curam. Setelah menuruni kurang lebih 200 anak tangga dari batu, sampailah Aisfa dan teman-temannya di pantai tersebut. Laut Hitam tampak sangat eksotis jika dilihat dari bawah tebing-tebing curam yang menaungi pantai.
            Aisfa berjalan menjauhi kerumunan teman-temannya yang asyik mengambil gambar. Aisfa lalu menyandiri, memandangi deburan ombak yang mencium-cium lembut pinggiran pantai. Sedari kecil Aisfa sangat menyukai pantai. Di pantai, menurutnya, manusia akan menemui kebebasan sekaligus keterbatasan. Pandanglah ke depan, maka Anda akan melihat langit dan laut yang tampak sangat luas dan bebas, semuanya biru, hampa, kosong, tapi indah. Lalu pandanglah lagi lebih jauh ke depan, sampai Anda menemui sebuah garis lurus jauh di tengah laut, itulah batas pandang manusia. Manusia tidak lagi mampu melihat apa yang ada di belakang garis lurus itu.Di pantai pula daratan dan lautan bertemu, tetapi pantai juga yang menjadi pemisahnya.
            Aisfa menghembuskan napas. Andai saja laut tahu dirinya kesepian, pasti laut akan mengirimkan ombaknya untuk menari-nari di hadapan Aisfa. Andai saja pasir pantai tahu dirinya kesepian, pasti pasir pantai akan perlahan bangun, turut menerbangkan diri bersama hembusan angin, lalu berbisik di telinga Aisfa. Andai saja tebing curam dan bebatuan tahu dirinya kesepian, pasti tebing dan batu-batu itu akan merengkuh menenangkan Aisfa. Tetapi semua hanya andaikan.
            Kuliah lapangan Aisfa telah usai. Memasuki tahun ketiga, Aisfa ditransfer ke Stenden University Qatar. Di Stenden Univesity Qatar ini Aisfa mempelajari strategi-strategi manajemen lebih dalam. Di tahun ini Aisfa banyak mempelajari teori-teori manajemen serta penerapannya dalan situasi yang berbeda-beda.
            Tahun ketiga dilalui dengan lancar, Aisfa benar-benar serius menjalani tahun keempatnya. Di tahun ini Aisfa akan menjalani 30 minggu penempatan di sebuah industri pariwisata dan menulis tugas akhirnya.
            Berpeluh-peluh keringat yang mendampingi perjuangan Aisfa, selaksa doa yang dikirimkan oleh orang-orang yang disayanginya, mengantarkan Aisfa pada kelulusan yang manis.Beribu syukur tak henti-henti dipanjatkan Aisfa pada Allah SWT.Gelar Bachelor of Business Administration (BBA) Tourism Management atau S1 Manajemen Pariwisata berhasil disandangnya. Kini saatnya pulang ke Indonesia, menjumpai kedua orang tua dan kerabat-kerabat yang ia rindu 4 tahun lamanya.
            Sehari menjelang kepulangannya ke Indonesia, Aisfa kembali mengunjungi Artillery Wood Cemetery di desa Boezinge, Ypres. Setelah berdoa di makam Buyutnya, dia berdiri mematung di bawah salah satu pohon yang banyak berjejer di sekeliling pemakaman. Sudah 4 tahun dia tinggal di Belanda, menuntut ilmu susah payah dan sekarang sudah saatnya pulang ke Indonesia. Aisfa sudah sangat merindu. Rindu akan keramaian yang dulu selalu mengisi kekosongan hatinya, rindu akan kasih sayang orang-orang yang dicintainya di Indonesia, yang dulu juga selalu membelai jiwanya. Tak sabar rasanya untuk segera menbuang kesepian yang menyesaki ruang hatinya.
            Tetes-tetes air mata itu lalu jatuh lagi, untuk yang kesekian kalinya. Isak-isak itu juga tersuarakan lagi, mengimbangi suara-suara daun kering yang dihembuskan lembut oleh angin. Cukup sudah nisan-nisan, pohon-pohon, langit kelabu, dan daun-daun kering menjadi saksi bisu tangis kesedihan Aisfa, menjadi penonton semu ungkapan kesepian Aisfa. Karena hanya beberapa langkah dari tempat Aisfa menangis, sesosok manusia turut menjadi saksi dan penonton teriakan hati Aisfa. Sosok tersebut lalu berjalan menghampiri Aisfa.
            Sosok tersebut menatap bahu Aisfa yang naik turun karena sedu-sedan tangisnya.
            “Aku di sini membawa janjiku dan kembali menanyakan kesediaanmu,” ucap sosok itu.
            Aisfa tersentak, dia mengenali suara itu, itu suara Resky.
            “Berhentilah menangis, aku sudah di sini, untuk menghilangkan kesepianmu,  aku sudah di sini, Aisfa,” Resky berkata lagi.
            Resky meyakinkan Aisfa. Tetapi Aisfa tak kunjung berbalik menatapnya.
            “Aku masih mencintaimu, aku masih menyayangimu, dan aku masih berharap kita akan segera bersama,”
            Aisfa tetap tak bergeming, tetapi tangisnya mulai mereda.
            “Maafkan aku, selama empat tahun ini tak sekalipun aku menghubungimu. Semua kulakukan semata-mata agar pertemuan kita semakin indah, jika pada waktunya kita kembali bertemu,” suara Resky berat, pelan menggema di relung hati Aisfa.
            Isak Aisfa masih pelan terdengar.
            “Dan waktu itu adalah sekarang. Beribu usaha aku lakukan, berpuluhribu jarak aku tempuh, hanya untuk menemuimu di sini. Jika kamu memang bersedia, berbaliklah, dan tatap kedua mataku. Tetapi jika memang rasa itu telah tiada, biarlah aku yang berbalik, dan tidak akan pernah menemuimu lagi.” kembali Resky berkata, yang untuk kesekian kalinya ditanggapi dengan diam oleh Aisfa.
            Resky menunggu dalam tunduk. Keduanya berdiri dalam diam. Lagi-lagi alam menjadi saksi bisu dan penonton semu drama kehidupan dua hati yang merana.
            “Jangan pergi, Res. Jangan pernah pergi lagi. Aku masih menyayangimu, aku masih mencintaimu,” ucap Aisfa, akhirnya.
            Resky terpana dalam tunduknya.Lalu Aisfa berbalik menghadap dirinya.
            “Aku bersedia, Res.” ucap Aisfa lirih.
            Kedua insan itu tersenyum, lalu bersatu dalam sebuah pelukan yang hangat.
            Artillery Wood Cemetery,sebuah pemakaman yang mengisyaratkan kematian, kesedihan, dan kesepian, telah mampu menjadi saksi kehidupan,atas leburnya kesepian, dan atas bersatunya dua jiwa dalam satu cinta.